We are ready for school to start tomorrow. We are in a new town, at new schools. The kids are very excited. We have all the backpacks, binders, folders, pencils, pens, book covers, lunch boxes, and completed summer math packets ready to go. Mitchell has his uniforms and a new pair of shoes. Alexis picked out the perfect outfit. We are ready for school!
I am not ready for school to start tomorrow. I am not ready to let them go. Alexis will walk to school this year. Its only a half mile away, just 10 minutes. I will walk with her to start the year, but already she is asking if she can walk alone, with a friend, maybe after a week could I just stay home? Mitchell has to catch the middle school bus, almost a mile from our home. Its up a big hill, and around a few corners, but he asked me to wait for the bus at the end of the day, so he knows which stop is his. After all, we just moved in. I am not ready for summer to end. We were having fun. I am not ready to let them go, to watch the door close on another piece of their childhood. I am not ready for growing up. I am not ready for peer pressure, stranger danger, independence, big responsibilities. I am not ready for homework. I am not ready for another year to fly by. I am not ready to watch them walk out that door ALONE.
But I will trust, because I have to. I will trust that I taught them the things that they need to know when venturing out into the neighborhood. I will trust that they will find a friend to walk with. I have to believe that they will arrive safely at school each day. I will be waiting when they get home. I will ask, and check, and talk, and listen. I might be tempted to follow them. But then they will think that I don't trust them, and if I don't trust them, how will they ever learn to be trustworthy? I will trust that they will do the right thing, and tell me if they know of someone who is not. I will trust that they will be brave, and strong, and kind. I will trust myself, that I have done the best that I can, and it is time to let them go, let them learn, let them be, let them grow. I will keep an open heart, an open mind, open arms, an open door. Tomorrow, next week, next month, next year. They have to grow up, I have to let go. We are ready for school to start tomorrow.
I am not ready for school to start tomorrow. I am not ready to let them go. Alexis will walk to school this year. Its only a half mile away, just 10 minutes. I will walk with her to start the year, but already she is asking if she can walk alone, with a friend, maybe after a week could I just stay home? Mitchell has to catch the middle school bus, almost a mile from our home. Its up a big hill, and around a few corners, but he asked me to wait for the bus at the end of the day, so he knows which stop is his. After all, we just moved in. I am not ready for summer to end. We were having fun. I am not ready to let them go, to watch the door close on another piece of their childhood. I am not ready for growing up. I am not ready for peer pressure, stranger danger, independence, big responsibilities. I am not ready for homework. I am not ready for another year to fly by. I am not ready to watch them walk out that door ALONE.
But I will trust, because I have to. I will trust that I taught them the things that they need to know when venturing out into the neighborhood. I will trust that they will find a friend to walk with. I have to believe that they will arrive safely at school each day. I will be waiting when they get home. I will ask, and check, and talk, and listen. I might be tempted to follow them. But then they will think that I don't trust them, and if I don't trust them, how will they ever learn to be trustworthy? I will trust that they will do the right thing, and tell me if they know of someone who is not. I will trust that they will be brave, and strong, and kind. I will trust myself, that I have done the best that I can, and it is time to let them go, let them learn, let them be, let them grow. I will keep an open heart, an open mind, open arms, an open door. Tomorrow, next week, next month, next year. They have to grow up, I have to let go. We are ready for school to start tomorrow.